໑ FUCK.... NEED TO GET MY LIFE TOGETHER ASAP

??/01/25 (sheezy journal archive)

SHIT. I have art i need to do. Im waiting for my canson paper to arrive so i can work on the pastels i need to do for school… I SHOULD GET TO READING SHIT BRO its been years since I actually opened a book I need someone to put an ice pick thru my orbital cavity and scrape off the brainrot . Whatever. Maybe i need to actually schedule my time. But I SUCK at working with schedules so baaaad i hate them viscerally. I might get rid of my persona accs. They’re annoying. I dont think i care abt keeping schoolwork or commissions separated from my personal art anymore. I told myself i was gonna get animating this holiday season…. Nah……. My mom wants to go to greece. Im sure itll be fun but im concerned if ill be able to schedule everything i need to do…. Theres this one art trade i owe someone i havent had any motivation to work on at all…. Also another one but im not as concerned abt that other one bc they ahvent given any updates to their part yet. I also have an exam right after holiday season which ….. FUUUUUCK. Im so scatterbrained rn. I should get to working on that art trade. Im stressed. I’ve been playing sudoku On my 3ds tho for way too long……. ALSO i called the gender clinic yesterday hoping to finally make an appointment (ive been putting it off since june o_0) and they didn’t pick my call up so what the fuck!!,,! Wtvr. Hi sheezy.art….. how r the holidays treating u