໑ NEVER GET A BFA WORST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE

20/04/26

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As of typing this i am to get on a train soon to get to my top surgery consultation. Im not thrilled on the idea of getting it this soon but my doctor put a lot of hurry into me at least getting a consultation. There's like 0 waitlist for this shit where im at bc ig im the only transsexual to ever exist but i would like to at least wait until im done with college to get it bc recovery will be a bitch and im an arts mayor like being able to my arms is pretty fucking important but i #digress

college WILL kill me. its the end of the schoolyear so like i have so many projects to do and things to catch up on. i have a zine to make with some classmates and a sculpture and an animation and exams to study for and i should be doing more drawn studies etc etc etc. aside from all the personal projects i want to keep u with, this site included. Ive already decided that i will NOT b doing any more postcrossing for the rest of the year or at least until i find a new place to stay (dont want to keep living in my dorms. rent too expensive to pay for more than a year) and will also be holding off on commission work til i get thru this final stretch of bullshit.

in case anyone gaf i did end up getting my bridge pierced. i think its a bit crooked but what can u do right. my cousins reassured me it was punk rock or wtvr like ok #awesome. Ive been to a couple of concerts and like one (1) party since my last post and i want to go to more festivals and stuff so i can spend the free money the spanish goverment gave me when i turned 18 (its just smth they do). I bought tomodachi life living the dream and ive been JOYOUS and having fun which is not good BC I NEED TO LOCK IN!!!! Ive been doing a lot of crafts for fun and i have so many ideas for my sketchbook after 3000 years of not touching it + my commonplace journal which i did end up making and its so haardd to be normaal bc I DONT HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO SPARE TO DO ANY OF THE SHIT I WANT 2 DO!!! it pisses me off!!!

i have more shit i want to rant abt but thats better fit for the devlog. just know im still here. Im just fighting battles rn