໑ I MOVED OUT LOL

13/09/2025

sooo yeah lol. writing this from my new dorm. I havent begun uni yet... duh. bc its saturday. i should've already been here by last week buuut i had business to sort...... ie:

i was off on vacation from the 1rst to the 7th!!! with my ma and a friend of hers... not a lot happened but it did overlap with when my classes begin (the 5th) sooo i didnt. go. lol. but it was rly chill we stayed at a hotel and went to the beach every morning and then walked around some. i can never decide whether coastal spain is fucking awesome or a special kind of hell on earth. maybe both.... we saw some cool stores and by saw i mean saw BC THEY WERE ALL CLOSED :( there was an antique shop that looked very promising and i could not go it was upsetting :( nothing rly note worthy happened... it was just cool to take some time back n relax b4 everything hit the fan LOL

another reason why i skipped the 1rst week of school is uhmm my second t-shot!!!! had it on the 9th and it was nerve wracking. mainly bc my mom brought the medical papers that still had my deadname on em by accident so we had to go back to my town rly rly rly rly fast to grab the correct ones and get back b4 they closed the uhh. infirmary for like getting ur blood drawn? i have to get my blood drawn b4 every shot. to get my levels checked. so when i got the right papers and was waiting in line i came across one of my classmates which was sweet lol. Got my blood drawn fine enough (i got told i was clenching my fist too hard and needed to relax the fuck out but hey at least this time i didnt bruise half of my forearm in the process. This time a different nurse put my shot in and she did it QUICK dude. shotgunned that thing in me. its pretty viscous so i dont think youre supposed to bc it hurts more? it didnt tho, not even afterwards, at least compared to how the 1rst time went

some changes ive noticed since my first shot include a singular long dark hair growing from my chin and like. just the fact that my voice feels raspier when i speak? so i hope thats a sign that its begun to lower. theres more but it feels rly tmi. u can probably get an idea if u know anything abt what testosterone can do to u

that same afternoon i went to take my english exams. i cant remember if i talked abt this? in like june or july i took a C2 english exam at the like national language academy lol. C2 level is native speaking basically. i got my C1 level degree when i was 13 so i felt p confident going in it blind..... and then i missed the 1rst day of tests like an idiot. and then they failed me in the speaking test (i still dont know why!). so that afternoon i took the written tests i had missed. a listening excercise where they made me listen to two audios (one of an radio show interview on why homeschooling was rising in the us and uhhhh. i think the other one was abt assisted suicide) and a writing excercise where i had to write an opinion piece on AI and THEN (get this) write a forma email larping as like. a boss of a uhhhhh. logistics? company? replying to an employee's concerns regarding sexism in the workplace or something. I think i failed that one IDK HOW TO B FORMAL. anyways i also retook one of the tests i did take the first time. one of the excercises was an eassy on like eyecatching headlines or smth and the other i had to write some structured notes after listeing to some audio abt irish history lol

then uhhhmmmmm speaking test came along the next day!!! first excercise was a sustained monologue on one of 3 random topics. i figured id talk abt electric cars and why theyre lwky inneficient as a solution to current environmental (and tbh. ethical) concerns. and then uhhhhh it was a 7 minute conversation on another random topic with the guy i was with. bc the speaking test u take in pairs, i forgot to mention. anyways that one was on like gender identity, hate speech and intersectionality + non-traditional family structures. i think i couldve said more on it but its ok. if they fail me again im ending it all. jk

then it was up to packing and getting ready for the move!!!! i brought a LOT of art supplies for school. did i mention im doing a fine arts degree? thats why im moving out lol. I also brought my discman, my camcorder + digital camera and uhh my 3ds!!! my dorm is alright. the shower is rly small and so is the closet. thank god i didnt bring a lot of clothes. BUT THERE ARENT ANY LAMPS i need to buy one bc i didnt fucking. think. they wouldnt have LAMPS!!!! wtvr... i havent met anyone else staying here yet but ive also only been here for less than a day and tbh havent made a lot of efforts to meet new folks. i didnt eat in the cafeteria today at all. ive been walking around with my ma and my aunt since they had to come here to help me with my luggage and all. theyre staying the night at a hotel. i did go back to the dorm by myself at one point bc i wasnt in the mood for walking. i was bummed out i think bc this is such a radical change. it feels like my childhood is over fr now. and grief does this funny thing where it makes that idea a lot more somber. so i was bummed the fuck out. then i cried for like 10 minutes and was ok again lol

anyways thats how its been going :p i hope missing my 1rst week wont be too detrimental... im not sure i even know when classes start atm BUT!!! ill figure it out